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Gaslighting · also called reality distortion

am I crazy or is he lying

Gaslighting is a pattern where someone repeatedly denies your perception of events until you doubt your own memory and judgement. The tell is not one argument but a cumulative effect: you start recording conversations or asking other people whether you are being unreasonable.

What to do about it

Keep a dated written record of what was said. The record is the antidote, because the tactic depends on memory being contestable.

How people say it

Nobody looks this up by its clinical name. These are the ways it actually gets said.

  • am I crazy or is he lying
  • I do not trust my own memory anymore
  • they say it never happened
  • why do I always end up apologising
  • I feel like I am losing my mind
  • he twists everything I say
  • how do I know if I am being gaslit
  • I second guess everything now

Written by Brian Spiker, who has run Spiker Carpet and Tile Care since 2013 — the receipts. More terms in the encyclopedia.

About the author

Brian Spiker has run Spiker Carpet and Tile Care since 2013 — a real service business with real customers, real Google reviews, and 13 years of work most self-help authors will never do.

He writes the way operators talk: brutal, funny, and built from work that actually has to get done. Verify everything at spikercarpetandtilecare.com.